I love my son more than anything in this world. He is an incredible little guy who loves animals, Lego, video games, Pokemon and so much more. He has an amazing sense of humour and from a very young age has always enjoyed making people laugh. He is an incredibly creative young man who loves to write stories and in his mind, he’s always developing ideas for video games that he wants to develop when he gets older. I love all of these things about him.
When I meet new people, say as an example, a team of professionals at school, I never introduce my son by saying he has autism. Though autism is a big part of him, it doesn’t make him who he is. First and foremost, he is all of those things that I mentioned previously… and it is those things that make him who he is. If I was able to remove his autism I would be hard pressed to do that. I know there are a lot of parents out there who would disagree with me on this, but one has to keep in mind that autism is a spectrum and each individual is affected differently. Although my son has a number of challenges, these are things that, as a family we can overcome. Will it be easy? No, but we can and will do it. One day I expect that he will have a career and maybe a family of his own, if he should desire that.
Today, it just happens to be one of those days where we are having more than our normal number of struggles and challenges… I’m sure many of you know those days as well. There is nothing I can do to change it, but is sure does help to share and acknowledge it.
It has been one of those days where I feel frustrated because I can’t make his challenges disappear. It has been one of those days where I am very aware of the fact that there are many people that feel they have the right to criticize him for behaviours that he can’t control. It has been one of those days where it breaks my heart to see him try so hard and then feel that he is unsuccessful at things… when what I see is what he has overcome to get where he is today.
Just like any other parent all I want for him is to be happy, healthy and know how much he is truly cherished and loved by me and so many others.
Today was just one of those days where there were a few more tears and struggles than usual. But tomorrow is another day and the day will begin with a fresh start… until then, I think what we both need is a good night sleep!